It finally happened. I got certified as a Personal Trainer by the American Council on Exercise and I’m ready to officially announce Radiant Evolution Fitness to the world. I’ve always had a huge interest in fitness, nutrition, and what having a balanced relationship with those two can do for your mental health. I didn’t even know it, but I’d been using exercise and food as a way to cope with certain issues I faced through life. Some of the coping mechanisms were good.. and, well, some were bad and, at times, worsened the situation.
My fear of the bad times made me fear the fitness and nutrition industry as a whole and I ended up shying away from one of the few things that genuinely gave me joy. I followed in my parent’s footsteps and became a software engineer. However, as time went on, I started to feel like certain things that I had always strived for were charged differently, especially as I approached my late twenties. Money, men, marriage, and material things just didn’t mean what they used to mean to me. I thought that having those things and striving for those things represented what it meant to be “happy.” But it was all for the sake of “fitting in” and pleasing society. I believed so thoroughly in the sentiments of society that I didn’t really stop and think about whether or not these things really meant anything at all to me.
Recently, I went on a trip on my own and I was kind of forced to face reality. I didn’t want to do the things that I thought I should want to do. However, I did naturally gravitate toward the hotel gym (which was amazing by the way) more so than anything else. At the end of the day I felt that, although expensive, it was a worthwhile learning experience. I realized what really DID NOT matter to me.
I struggled against the realization for a bit. I wanted to hold onto the person I had been for the last ten years, but at the end of the day I did realize that that person is gone and I’m finally free to pursue what it is that really makes me happy and I’m passionate about. These past six months have been very stressful, but totally amazing because I was finally able to make decisions for myself and explore what really interests me. I’ve never been this fulfilled before in my life and hungry for new experiences.
SO! I signed up to get certified as a personal trainer. I let go of whatever negative perceptions I had about the career path and just embraced my voracious interest in this brand of training. Now I’m at the point where I am being trained myself, but I feel like the best way to grow and learn is to just throw yourself into things. My goal was to become certified, which I did. And I also gained a Weight Management Specialization so I can also help people specifically with their weight-loss and healthy behavioral goals.
At the end of the day, I did this because I was interested in it more than anything else and my willpower for “pretending” to be a software engineer was just.. running out. It’s no longer sustainable. I’ll pursue my dreams, and leave that to those who are pursuing theirs as well.